April's Fools

1. It would be naïve of me to assume that we would never have those annoying obligatory exchanges. The ones where the “right” questions are posed in succession with the calculated but slightly random 7-10 second pause as the list is covered. I’d rather sporadic honesty much more than regular calculated concern.
2. Forgetting events/people/places isn’t actually that bad….I usually forget where my cell phone & keys were last. Those are of immediate importance
3. I made a concerted effort to not speak in class today in an effort to make sure that the opinions that aren’t voiced when I speak were heard. I made it all the way to the last 10 minutes & blah. I spoke.
4. There is no reason why I’m nervous every time I do this but I am. The more advanced notice, the more I fret over it. I’ve begun to upset my friends with what has been deemed unnecessary nagging concern. So in an effort to at the very least glimpse at a better start, I’m reducing my concern to 0…..0.3632
5. There are moments, innocent stretches of time as I switch from one task to another, when I want to burn it all down and build a forest. Not literally burn something down, but just scrap the past and look back on a clean slate. Such luxuries are only afforded to those who have nothing left and I find that particular experience neither luxurious nor desirable. My canvas with its wear spots, stains, and uneven weaving will work just fine, for the moment at least0.
6. One of the joys of hiking is that as you progress (in some not all cases) the trail gradually climbs upwards. There are segments of the trail when the incline is quite steep, but for the most part it’s a gradual ascent.
7. It’s becoming less and less clear to me exactly why I bother with this social ritual that is so popular amongst my peers. I’ve no real victories; in fact, most of my experiences have resulted in me walking away realizing that it has traveled as far as it will go. Anything further would be a mismanagement of time and a clear illustration of what is meant by the phrase “Lacking self respect” as no self respecting individual would continue to humiliate themselves for the sake of some silly notion. It isn’t attractive; toss that sentimental romantic shit out of the window, it’s just stupid. The subsequent days that those who are spent reviewing where I went wrong. Yet all the review in the world does nothing to change what has occurred and it doesn’t always apply to the next experience. Hence my resignation to make the logical choice and abandon dating all together. I’m sure there a multitude of successful ventures I’ve yet to explore behind my stubborn desire to make that which isn’t working, work.
8. I wish we never met. You’re a wonderful person, full of life and creativity and all of the other things that make people desirable. Interesting thing is, I haven’t seen much of that lately and I don’t know why. I never really understood how all of this began and as a result I’ve never been comfortable with where it was going because well I had no idea. How does one organize his emotions when he’s no clue as to what’s taking place or why? Actually I knew all along, it was just a matter of acknowledging the obvious.
9. Selling children is supposedly a crime against humanity but how many children are purchased from developing countries by well off Americans hoping to manifest some semblance of social justice? What about the children in the domestic adoption system? I guess American brown babies are cute anymore…
10. The more I think about graduate school, the more I want to abandon the idea completely and become an outdoorsman. Living in the wild, devoid of technology and 95% of the stresses that are associated with being one electronic medium away from being contacted. No worries (not that you were concerned in the first place) I’ve grown a bit fond of showering with hot water on a regular basis.
11. I’m switching back to sugar in my coffee, this honey business is quaint but it leaves something to be desired. I shouldn’t have that feeling over breakfast; it’s just a horrible way to start the day.
12. Even when I wrong I still got my point across...
13. Survey shows that someone is putting their psychology degree to use.